why do i have to take drugs to have any kind of feelings? i never use to be like this. man why im so shut in? i never talk to anyone anymore. I like everyone. but damn it im irritated. 

I miss her and I cant do a damn thing about it. 
I probably don’t miss her, im just fucking selfish. 

man I’m gonna write the book i always talked about. I need some kind of goal that isnt money related in my life. a personal goal that will make me a better person. Im gonna do it damn it. 

I got a degree in English damn it. 

man, it irritates me so much that gay people and trans people and people in general aren’t accepted. Why are people so mean. I’m really sad it. 
But I’m hopeful of a more a tolerant future. That’s what gets me through it.